This is a major struggle for me. I definitely need to surrender to God in this area of my life because I have the hardest time with both.
I get so caught up in my hurt feelings and wanting to feel "vindicated" that once someone crosses that line, there is no return. Even if I'm cordial again I'm very guarded and cold. Being that way makes me very uncomfortable because it's the complete opposite of who I am.
No matter if it's friends or family, once my trust has been violated or broken I turn to stone. I'll speak, I'll even pray for them but I'm never really free or comfortable in that relationship again.
I would never want God to deal with me that way. I fail him, break his trust and dishonor his friendship on a daily basis. I need to trust Him to help me, not only understand true trust and forgiveness, but to always show it to the people he brings into my life.
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