Monday, August 11, 2014
S.O.A.P.
V. 31 - "After this prayer the meeting place shook, and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit. Then they preached The Word of God with boldness."
O(bservation) There is a very real fear associated with being a strong witness & disciple for Jesus, that has nothing to do with doubting who He is or what we believe, but rather worrying about the reception we will receive from other people. How we may be rejected or ridiculed plays a huge part especially when we approach our discipleship from a human standpoint. However, even in that fear, we have to continue to pray for the power that the Holy Spirit brings. God doesn't want us to deny our fear, but He doesn't want us to allow our fear to become our focus. God uses the peculiar things of this world to show how magnificent and powerful and perfect He is. That includes US. We can't even take a breath unless He allows it, yet He allows us to have free will. We get to choose whether we will go right or left, choosing the straight and narrow path that leads to life or the wide and crooked path that will eventually lead to death. Even when we have been called we still have a choice. We have a choice to understand that God does not call the qualified, but He qualifies the called. In just being called alone God has qualified you to do the very thing He has called you to. Each one of the 12 disciples had been called and through their following Jesus all the way to the cross and discovering His empty tomb, they were qualified to carry out the work that God had planned for them. John and Peter were certainly afraid they would also be put to death when they were arrested by the religious leaders for preaching the Gospel "In Jesus name". God favored them -- because of their faith and obedience they were set free from THAT persecution. Their first reaction was not to say "I can't do this" "this is too much." Because they saw and remembered what Jesus just suffered for us all, they pressed on even though they were afraid. Instead, like Jesus did in the garden they turned to each other and they all prayed for God to strengthen them to carry out "with boldness" the task that He lay before them and called them to do. God rewarded them with the strength that comes ONLY by His spirit. The Holy Spirit, allowed to do His work in them, caused them to preach the Word of God with boldness! It is not by our own might or wisdom that we can accomplish anything for the Kingdom of God, but by us FULLY surrendering as a vessel for God's Spirit and allowing Him to use us to HIS full and complete Glory.
A(pplication) For quite some time I have realized the calling on my life. I've accepted that all of the things I've suffered and overcome were specifically for that purpose. I've been fearful when I think about that calling from a carnal perspective. Fearful enough to run in the other direction, to ignore my calling all together, and to even show behavior that dishonors God and my faith in Him. BUT in the times where I've truly surrendered, I've seen and completely understood the Power of God to make me able to do ALL things through Him. I do not believe that that passage of scripture (Phil. 4:13) refers to the menial things we are faced with on a daily basis. While I understand fully that we are to live so that EVERYTHING we do, we do as if we are doing it for the Lord - I know in my heart that that passage is referring to those things that God puts before us, those situations that He allows us to face that seem impossible. The times where we fear we will surely die of this happens or we will never survive if that happens. These are the instances when God wants us to trust Him the most. There is nothing too hard for God. So I am comforted that if He puts a task in front of me (or you)...IF HE PUTS A TASK IN FRONT OF ME (we're not talking about the things WE get ourselves into...) it's in my best interest to move out of the way and let Him do His work in me and through me. I have to set my fear, doubt (in myself), and disbelief aside. Anything that will hinder what God wants to do has to go. I must pray for His continual strength to overcome all of those things because that is where/how the enemy sneaks in. He comes to steal, kill, and destroy by turning my little fears into all I can see! On my own I remain uncovered. By my own might I am afraid, apprehensive and confused. I am ready to stop, run away, and hideout until it's over. By God's might I shall run and not grow weary, I shall walk and not faint. I shall mount up on wings like an eagle and SOAR!
P(rayer) Dear God, My God, you have been so mercifully kind & so generous w/your forgiveness, love and understanding. I asked for answers and you have freely and abundantly provided exactly what I need. Thank you for helping me understand that I cannot depend on my own wisdom, understanding or ability, but that even in my fear and lack of confidence, I have to trust and receive your Spirit and every single thing you set before me will be completed successfully. Help me to stay out of the way so that your will can be done in me, through me and for the sake of others.
Amen.
Saturday, June 28, 2014
The Builder Knows Best
Don't think because you've seen evidence of God working in your life, that makes you better than those who are trying to find their way, or those who don't even realize they're lost. It simply means the foundation has been laid. You still have much work to do. You may have learned some lessons, passed some tests, that does not exempt you from being tested or tempted further and you're certainly not exempt from failing at either. Rejoice over the tearing down of that old house. Praise God that you survived it. Shout because God is faithful and you can see that foundation. You can stand tall on it and know you won't fall through. Be grateful (though walls still need to be built, and floors need to be put down, and tests and trials will still come before these things can be completed) God is in control.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Remember! Don't Retreat.
Sunday, April 6, 2014
"...You gone hurt yo back..."
I've never been they type of woman who enjoys carrying bags. No matter what they contain, I don't like to have to carry them on my journey to the next place. Sure, all women love a good hand bag, and I own several, but on a daily basis, if I could avoid carrying one, it would forever be my choice.
In the beginning of your journey, your bag is simply cute, it's stylish, it goes perfectly with your outfit and it's filled with the things you quite possibly will need through out the day. The longer and the further you travel, the more your bag begins to weigh on you. As the road gets more treacherous, and becomes an uphill battle, you realize that maybe some of the things you thought you needed to carry with you in that bag are actually not that important after all. Your mind begins to wander to thoughts of how much easier your journey might be if you weren't carrying such a heavy load but you convince yourself that this bag and everything in it is vital to who you are and what you want other people to think of you.
Some of us, have been walking around with baggage full of things that God is patiently waiting for us to hand over to Him. As heavy as our bags already are, we keep finding room in them for more "stuff" to carry. This baggage has become the most defining factor in our lives. When we meet new people we hold it out and say "look at this, look at all my mess" and we hope that as they sort through it, they won't conclude that we aren't good enough. Because, if they do, then we'll have to pick that up and carry that with us too.
This is not the way God intended for us to live. He intended to allow us to go through "this" so he can bring us to "that" and we'd be prepared to handle it. Of course there is pain, anger and disappointment associated with the lessons we learn in life, but God ALWAYS provides healing. We are constantly surviving and overcoming, so, why don't we begin to fill our bags with our victories? Why don't we see that those are the light burdens that the Bible talks about?
Growing up in Church, they used to sing an old hymn on Sunday morning, "...take your burdens to the Lord and leave it there." The most important line in that song is LEAVE IT THERE. Don't give God your heaviness and expect Him to do anything with it, unless you give it to Him, EXPECTING, TRUSTING, and BELIEVING that He is who He says He is and He will do what He says He will do. Don't go to God with your agenda, expecting him to move on YOUR time. Go to God completely opened to giving up your bags and everything in them, trusting Him to sort through the mess and return them to you full of the message He wants you to carry to your next level.
My sincere prayer is that we all will become so uncomfortable in the mess we've made of our lives, and that God will give us the courage we need to become comfortable with Him turning our mess into our most powerful message.
Sunday, March 16, 2014
Forgiveness & Trust
This is a major struggle for me. I definitely need to surrender to God in this area of my life because I have the hardest time with both.
I get so caught up in my hurt feelings and wanting to feel "vindicated" that once someone crosses that line, there is no return. Even if I'm cordial again I'm very guarded and cold. Being that way makes me very uncomfortable because it's the complete opposite of who I am.
No matter if it's friends or family, once my trust has been violated or broken I turn to stone. I'll speak, I'll even pray for them but I'm never really free or comfortable in that relationship again.
I would never want God to deal with me that way. I fail him, break his trust and dishonor his friendship on a daily basis. I need to trust Him to help me, not only understand true trust and forgiveness, but to always show it to the people he brings into my life.
Saturday, March 15, 2014
Are We There Yet?...
It's blowing my mind that the same things I want/expect from friends and someone I can call my mate, are the same things that God wants from me. He expects me to be genuine in my dealings with Him, to do everything out of love for Him not obligation, to be honest even when my feelings or opinions aren't favorable towards Him, to have faith in the relationship that we've built and to protect and respect that relationship no matter what.
In order for me to receive that kind of love from others, God wants to know that I'm able to reciprocate it and that I'm even able to recognize it. He wants to know that if I'm blessed with it I won't destroy it. He's teaching me how to know what true love and friendship really is. He's chipping away at this wall that life and pain and fear has helped me build and hide behind. He's teaching me about forgiveness and loyalty and most importantly pure 100% unconditional love. I want it but can I give it? I want it but am I able to accept it? I want it but will I recognize it? I want it and God wants me to have it, but much like a parent won't give an immature/irresponsible 16 yr old the keys to the car, he's not going to let me have it until I'm ready.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Dear Little Me...
i can't erase the things you now know or the things that shouldn't have happened.
i can only be here even in silence to comfort you and let you grieve
i can honestly say i know how you feel what you're dealing with is unimaginable
there aren't words to make it better but i'll always find love in my heart for you
i feel every ounce of the pain you do, and not because i choose to, but because i have to
you're a part of me.
you hurt i hurt.
what cuts you makes me bleed too
but i'm here
you're not alone
we share a bond in a lot of things but most importantly God.
we recognized Him in each other before anything else.
He'll give us both what we need always, for me to help you thru your painful times and you to hold me through mine.
i'm not afraid to face what ever may come because i know you believe in me.
its gonna be ok.
you'll heal.
i'll help you.
i'm here.
i love you.
love me.